Some people will not know the difference

razed

it’s an early morning after not sleeping
the curtains never hide the sun’s beams
my arms are aching again, 
feel stretched and recoiling waiting for a new wind
sailing across forbidden seas, boats waiting to be docked 
maybe i’m only in love with your negatives
i’d take your flaws over everything that is right with you
like how some people dont like their sneakers brand new 
i’m glad some one kicked you around in the dirt a little.
lying face up at the skyroof past roof tops and under neon signs
the black sky freckled with gray specks like a pale girl in late June.
sixty five to seventy to eighty five
Buzzing from the wheels and inside of my head
I am a mission and a map
racing down out streets as fast as we go
I’m grateful and always try to appreciate everything
but happiness has some kind of satisfaction attached to it
And an ending to go with it—
Something I’m not willing to take just yet.
I started this so I could get more out of being a human being.
And that’s why I still do this.
I also started doing this to become more than me.
To be able to create something that wasn’t limited like I am sometimes.